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I grabbed for this book with all the enthusiasm of a malaria patient reaching for quinine. I couldn't take the AA message. I couldn't see how anything was wrong with me except that every now and then I drank a little too much. So I read this book. Even memorized parts of it. I could quote whole pages at one point. I was going to be a "responsible" drinker. Only problem was that I am an alcoholic. I will never be able to drink like "ordinary" people. The advice in this book kept me working for that control. In the process, between when I gave up AA and finally threw this dangerous pack of misinformation and lies into the trash, I lost my wife and three kids. My behavior on one night of "controlled" drinking was so impressive that a restraining order was put out to keep me from causing them undue harm and anxiety. I totalled my company car and lost my job. A month later, after my broken collar bone healed and the stitches had been taken out of my skull, I was arrested for drunken driving at two in the afternoon after a business lunch. Depression set in, and I decided to do my own version of "Leaving Las Vegas." Even that didn't work. And all this responsible and rational bologna was just making me feel worse and suicidal. Why couldn't I just take control and beat this liquor thing with the ideas in this book? The answer is very simple. I am addicted to alcohol. Once I start, I can NOT predict what the outcome will be. I have been going to AA for almost eleven months now. Not only has the twelve step program helped rid me of the urge and compulsion to drink, it is teaching me how to live life honestly and without denial. I believe I now have a chance for a better life than I ever had before. The reason is simple: I admitted that I was powerless over alcohol and that my life had become unmanageable. I learned that only a Power greater than myself could restore me to sanity. I'm sticking with what works. I am just thankful that I never killed anybody with my car when I was believing the garbage in this goofy book! The contents of this book are not dangerous, they are criminal.
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